Without Control

You've turned my life into fear I've been living in the nightmare And I seemed to get away But you've spread poison with a vengeance Into another generation It's never gonna stop Remaining scars of committed sins They are not going away, nor being erased They live on Running from addiction Every breath is like a lure You were witness to my suffering Now you bring down the pain on you You were witness to my suffering Now you bring down the pain on you I'm on my knees I can't hold on I can't hold on My hope is gone Been up the hill Now down in the hole I'm back for more Without control The recurring bloody nightmare That reminds me every time Of irreversible corruption Growing up from unaware choices Please get me out of here I'm on my knees I can't hold on I can't hold on My hope is gone Been up the hill Now down in the hole I'm back for more Without control I'm living in the nightmare (You've turned my life into fear And I seemed to get away But you've spread poison again It is never gonna end Remaining scars of the sins They are not going away They are not being erased It is never gonna end) I have been up, I have been down And every day I've been in a fight With something that's out of control With my own mind, one deeply lost At age of twelve could've been my end Now you intend to follow me I'm powerless to prevent that Nothing new under the sun I'm on my knees I can't hold on I can't hold on My hope is gone Been up the hill Now down in the hole My world is ending but I keep going back for more My world is ending but I keep going back for more My world is ending but I keep going back for more Uninterrupted nightmare Lasting since I remember Wake me up from this horror Can't stand it any longer