Pessimist

Call me your pessimist

I will mourn who you'll become

In all the lives that I have lived

I have loved you in each one

I can see it burning down

Loving you on broken ground

But I want to be with you

They say love's an antidote

But I feel sickness on my skin

So i'll keep my stomach in my throat when you ask me how i've been

Is this just the love that was taught to me

Is this just the love that i'll always be

I try not to say these things out loud so you're not scared of me

Loving you is freaking out and i'm silently screaming

I've been overthinking conversations

Trying to find the peace of mind I used to know

Lying soaking in my condemnations

Dying over how much it hurts my guts

They say love's an antidote

But I feel sickness on my skin

So i'll keep my stomach in my throat when you ask me how i've been

Is this just the love that you taught to me

Is this just the love that i'll always be

Is this just the love that was taught to me

Is this just the love that i'll always be