Sad Little Rant

Sorry left the party I'll be back in a sitch Hey I meant it when I said it but I'm anxious as shit You see his new girl isn't drinking, why can't I be that bitch? I'm so awkward when I'm thinking guess it is what it is I microdose Ketamine Broken home made broken bottles if you know what I mean The realest shit I ever write are these sad little rants Every child's wish I had turned into should but I can't Picking up the pieces of my father Wonder when I'll make him proud, he wonders when I'll make a dollar Spending all my dollars in all the wrong ways Can't buy enough Adderall to keep me awake these days I'm fading away I'm fading away I'm fading away Made a habit out of hating now I'm hated for this And I'm trying to do better but I'm faker than shit Collecting all the broken dudes they be psycho but rich Hey I meant it when I told them I'm The world's biggest bitch (and I am) Trying real real hard I'm making strides Who the fuck isn't? Mean if failure's just an option, I Raise a white flag high I hold it up it's blowing in the sky If God is with me now hey God look out cause it'd be damn good timing I'm fading away I'm fading away Yeah, fading away Creep crawling through the south side Showing off my sweet side I'm lonely in the mean time Good at losing my mind Creep crawling through the south side Showing off my sweet side I'm lonely in the mean time Baby's losing her mind Fading away