Shot After Shot

I swallow pill after pill And choke down shot after shot Feeling so bleak and so dark Oh lord, I'm falling apart Fuck I'm scared to die then I wanna die Why, my oh my, look at the time Anxiety makes the minutes fly while I am lost inside my mind I try and try, I close my eyes Should I drink up Should get high I can't wake up, think wanna die Now I'm wide awake. This is my life Too much pride, keep depression inside If I said I'm fine, that's right I lied Watch me take this bourbon for a ride That's right, you can really pry I won't let u in, so please don't try Last time I did it made u cry Miss me with that fuckin' bullshit Ya, nah, not this time 1,000 cuts as deep as bone These wounds, I made them on my own I watched the blood fall to the floor And still I'm crying out for more I am just sick I am incurable I am a risk What good is this? Please tell me, Miss I am here, suffering I have no bliss Give death a kiss Sure, I'll be missed but I am a sinner I'm next on the list In death I found bliss I'm tired of crying and dying inside Lord, I confide This pain I subside I cannot handle it I cannot hide Cease all the punishment that is my life Leave it behind Tears on the knife I did it right and I still lost the fight Drown in the bottle, a cure for the sorrow Numb out tomorrow, the demons that follow God, it feels right The ending in sight No one will see me I'll fade in the night I swallow pill after pill And choke down shot after shot Feeling so bleak and so dark Oh lord, I'm falling apart Fuck