casual sabotage

Hiding here in camouflage When they said that they want me You love me, you need me Call it casual sabotage You think that it's easy I'm tryna get to sleep with the lights on 'Cause I am confused and I'm frightened I'm tryna get to sleep with the lights on I don't understand this on my own I'm just a messed up kid With sewn up lips I can't take this shit I need to exist Sittin', staring at my watch I can't tell if it's morning or midday or evening The pressure got my head in knots I don't know who's deceivin' I'm tryna get to sleep with the lights on 'Cause I am confused and frightened I'm tryna get to sleep with the lights on I don't understand this on my own I'm just a messed up kid With sewn up lips I can't take this shit I need to exist Burn me down till we're nothin' but enemies And shut me out till we're nothin' but friends Burn me out till we're nothin' but enemies And shut me out till we're nothing but friends I'm just a messed up kid (I won't ever hide alone) With sewn up lips (she'd take my heart and hole it up) I can't take this shit (breakin' for the two of us) I need to exist (broken till there's only dust)