Just Be Yourself Is the Worst Advice I've Ever Been Given

I built myself with matchsticks Strike me down I'll keep you warm Till you turn your back on me I'm flickering forget me not I'm the dirt on your shoes You are the blood on my knees But maybe someday I'll be someone Who could muster the strength To put a smile on their face With yesterday's hands on their throat Tearing at my flesh again What's it feel like to fit in My heart is rotting on the shelf I wanna be somebody else I tried and I tried and I can't get myself clean Some things never change Folded my heart in two and Stored it in my back pocket Wrote a note to myself and Told myself that I lost it So I took everything that you gave me Wrote it down missed the wall Landed on my wrist Woah woah Wrote a note to myself Said I lost it I'm a piece of the puzzle You're already complete But maybe someday I'll fit somewhere Without trimming myself To fit into the mold Just be yourself is the worst thing I've been told Tearing at my flesh again What's it feel like to fit in My heart is rotting on the shelf I wanna be somebody else I tried and I tried and I can't get myself clean Some things never change Folded my heart in two and Stored it in my back pocket Wrote a note to myself and Told myself that I lost it So I took everything that you gave me Wrote it down missed the wall Landed on my wrist Woah woah Wrote a note to myself Said I lost it Rip the pin that's Stuck in my chest I swear to you I'll Give you my best Rip the pin that's Stuck in my chest I swear to you I'll Give you my best I've got this locked and loaded My way with words is encoded With metaphors and big words To cover up how bad this hurts Folded my heart in two and Stored it in my back pocket Wrote a note to myself and Told myself that I lost it Know that I don't need you (The days that you won't remember) Or the blood that I've shed (Are the nights that pull me under) I'll be fine on my own (Now I get to live this over) I'll fit in when I'm dead (I'm fucked and I won't get better)