Find My Way

I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way Way back to you (yeah) I'm trying, I'm trying to find a way Way back to you Uh, yeah Certain things that I went through take a toll on me, mentally (take a toll on me, mentally) I let go of everyone I love but hold onto the memories (hold onto the memories) I don't wanna have to take the blame for the things that I didn't do (things that I didn't do) But I don't wanna take responsibility for all that I did to you (yeah) I'm in my thoughts in too deep, can't turn back now Stubborn and selfish, yeah, I know, hard for me to back down Hiding my smile, pouring my emotions in a red cup Hate that I feel so deep, hate that I think too much Tryna heal myself the same way I lost myself (lost myself) Why I feel the more I try, the more I'm not myself? Maybe my head don't work, maybe the meds don't work I wanna feel numb, maybe I'd rather be dead Dead don't hurt (dead don't hurt) I'm tryin' (and without you right here, my heart is frozen) I'm tryin' to find a way (like everything I touch ends up broken, yeah) Way back to you (me, I'm still searchin', yeah, me I'm still) I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way Way back to you