the apology i'll never receive

Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh (If he was here now, what would you want him to say?) I know it's unexpected, just give me a second I need to say sorry for the things I did to you When you were younger, to you and your mother If only I'd have known back then the damage it would do I've watched you fight with addiction and struggle with commitment I couldn't help but think of you as a thorn in my side Withdrew my affection to teach you a lesson Oh, what a waste of our time But there's no knock on my door There's no "Please can we talk?" No "Sorry for all of the pain that I caused" When I sat in my kitchen with quiet forgiveness I thought you would find your way here, but you didn't I'll write myself the apology I'll never recieve Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh-ooh, ooh Too young at 11 to learn how of deception Standing on the doorstep, you were screaming out my name The day I got married, I know you were angry But that's a conversation I'm not brave enough to face So I kept you at a distance, watched you try to fix it See the pain written on your face, it reminds me of her It's hard to remember all our years together And I hate how it hurts But there's no knock on my door There's no "Please can we talk?" No "Sorry for all of the pain that I caused" When I sat in my kitchen with quiet forgiveness I thought you would find your way here, but you didn't I'll write myself the apology I'll never receive Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh-ooh, ooh I'll never receive Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh-ooh, ooh I can't keep on waiting for you to say sorry All of the anger has poisoned my body If you ever listen to this song I've written I want you to know you're already forgiven