Speaking In Poetry

I often wonder why I'm always the one to blame I have faith in what I'm preaching It all comes out the same You only speak in poetry and agony But you won't have the strength to withstand the truth But I feel like a burden behind these walls And I know I'd still answer if you called Just leave and clean up the mess you made I'll convince myself that I'm not the one who's grieving I often cry out for a quiet place to breathe But in my heart I know it's not the place I wanna be I never saw you as a pessimist I'm feeling desolate and I'll have to admit That the signs were always there from the start But I feel like a burden behind these walls And I know I'd still answer if you called Just leave and clean up the mess you made I'll convince myself that I'm not the one who's grieving And time, when time passes by again You'll be crawling back to a place that has left you frozen It's a vicious cycle Its a downward spiral, you wrote Now my heart is bleeding Now your story's pleading, just go I'm sick and tired of this mess we're in I thought you'd finally understand But I guess you never will I always thought that I was constantly wrong I can't shake the feeling I've been right for so long Just leave and clean up the mess you made I'll convince myself that I'm not the one who's grieving And time, when time passes by again You'll be crawling back to a place that had left you frozen