Where Is the Fire?

Everyone says to forgive myself first But my heart is as dark as the dirt In your black fur In the deep hole In the dark night outside I don't want forgiveness I just want to see you again Now I would burn in hell just to hold my friend If I'd got there a little bit sooner If I'd shut my fucking computer You'd still be here Painting our house with your dander and calm Maybe I was trying to keep from feeling out of control But now I would burn in hell just to feel at all I'm so numb I can't resolve So where is the fire? Where is the fire? Where is the fire? Bring me the fire Will you remember the middle of things? Or will I be judged by my butcherous endings, All clumsy and wrong My book-ending shame I'd sell for a song To sing in your name Where's my heart in all this? Is it speaking? I've not heard a thing Am I just holding on too tight Or letting go too easy? Nothing feels quite right My everything is freezing Where is the fire? Where is the fire? Bring me the fire Bring me the fire Where is the fire? Where is the fire? Where is the fire? Where is the fire? Where is the fire?