Guts

It started with the sun peering through my bedroom window- shining on this restless body. I'll muster up the guts to get up or waste the day and lose your money. I've got a lot to say but never one to take your time away. I don't wanna be a nuisance. I'm just too kind for that. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So how exactly does one wake up to a world that takes from the honest, hard-working descent? Was born into a home of hardship, forever independent. Why can't I feel anything anymore? I'm not the person I was. Those days I felt so sure. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So I can learn to feel again. Help me get the guts to learn again. Leave home to go see the country. Leave home and you're sharing your body. Come home from seeing the country. Come home to a house filled with nothing. Stay home from seeing the country. Stay home cause I'm scared to be leaving. Now I feel myself going crazy. 20 years old with only these songs to save me. Bend my bones until they break so you can have all you can take from me. I'll still have my voice and you'll be playing games. Out on your courts still playing games. I've been so scared so I'm running far from resolve and the ones that help to pry me from bed every morning- hiding away in his tomb. Take me. Break me. Disregard these thoughts and fill my head with everything that made this worth it. So I can learn to feel again. Help me get the guts to learn again.