Original Broadway Chorus of Natasha, Pierre & the Great Comet of 1812
Performer
David Malloy
Programming
Mark Dover
Bass Clarinet
John Murchison
Bass
Alon Bisk
Cello
Caryl Paisner
Cello
Alex Gibson
Chorus
Ani Taj
Chorus
Ashley Perez Flanagan
Chorus
Azudi Onyejekwe
Chorus
Courtney Bassett
Chorus
Erica Dorfler
Chorus
Josh Canfield
Chorus
Lauren Zakrin
Chorus
Lulu Fall
Chorus
Nick Gaswirth
Chorus
Reed Luplau
Chorus
Scott Stangland
Chorus
Claudia Chopek
Viola
Matt Doebler
Conductor
Or Matias
Conductor
Joey Cassata
Drums
Heath Saunders
Guitar
Ken Clark
Guitar
Thad Debrock
Guitar
Marilyn Cole
Horn
Jeff Marder
Programming
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
David Malloy
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
David Malloy
Producer
Luke Klingensmith
Assistant Engineer
Nate Odden
Assistant Engineer
Bob Ludwig
Mastering Engineer
Kevin Killen
Mixing Engineer
Enrico de Trizio
Recording Engineer
Howard Kagan
Producer
Janet Kagan
Producer
Sonny Paladino
Producer
Isaiah Albolin
Recording Engineer
Lyrics
Is this how I die?
Ridiculed and laughed at
Wearing clown shoes
Is this how I die
Furious and reckless
Sick with booze
How did I live?
I taste every wasted minute
Every time I turned away
From the things that might have healed me
How long have I been sleeping?
Is this how I die?
Frightened like a child
Lazy and numb
Is this how I die?
Pretending and preposterous
And dumb
How did I live?
Was I kind enough and good enough?
Did I love enough?
Did I ever look up and see the moon
And the stars and the sky?
Oh, why have I been sleeping?
They say we are asleep until we fall in love
We are children of dust and ashes
But when we fall in love we wake up
And we are a God and angels weep
But if I die here tonight
I die in my sleep
All of my life has been searching the words
Of poets, and saints, and prophets, and kings
And now at the end all I know that I've learned
Is that all that I know
Is I don't know a thing
So easy to close off
Place the blame outside
Hiding in my room at night
So terrified
All the things I could've been
But I never had the nerve
Life and love I don't deserve
So I'll write, alright
I've had my time
Close my eyes
Let the death bells chime
Bury me in burgundy
I just don't care
Nothing's left
I've looked everywhere
Is this how I die?
Was there ever any other way my life could be?
Is this how I die?
Such a storm of feelings inside of me
But then, why am I screaming?
Why am I shaking?
Oh God, was there something that I missed?
Did I squander my divinity?
Was happiness within me the whole time?
They say we are asleep until we fall in love
We are children of dust and ashes
But when we fall in love we wake up
And we are a God and angels weep
But if I die here tonight
I die in my sleep
They say we are asleep until we fall in love
And I'm so ready to wake up now
I wanna wake up
Don't let me die while I'm like this
I wanna wake up
God, don't let me die while I'm like this
Please let me wake up now
God don't let me die while I'm like this
I am ready
I'm ready
To wake up