Suicidal Thoughts

I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying) Why do I even try? Why do I even write Lyrics about how I'm living the life? When I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pounced in I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain Yeah, put a bitch in the coffin So my family has options Gonna work 'til I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example 'Cause kids looking up Can't leave them in shambles Can't make them think clocking out is okay So fuck suicide, I'm here to stay Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time Tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time Tryna find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I'll be running now I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying) One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart Put the past behind me I'm pressed with time I'm stressed with life My breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing Crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed With death inside my head Yeah, that note you found, I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down and out Racing thoughts, I had to drown them out, fuck Never giving in, I swear to God No matter how many times I prayed to a god I don't believe in Just to see if I will never wake up, but he called my bluff Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time Tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time Tryna find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I'll be running now I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying)