Facing My Demons

Why do I feel like I gotta be somebody that the world wants me to be I was crazy, I was losin' it Cocaine in my body, I'm abusin' it I'm gettin' fucked up on Percocet Just received a call, it was a death threat If I gotta die today and there ain't no other way But shootin' me down then Puttin' me up in the grave Then I'mma face it Look the shooter in his eyes The one who can save me is the man in the sky The one pullin' the trigger is the devil in disguise For my children's sake, I'm tryna be alive I'm a beast in the streets, I know how to survive All my life I been doubted Will I see 25? I doubt it Rolls-Royce bitch just know I just bought it I just wanna be the man for my fam I been through pain, I walk in the the rain I look at my reflection up in the Mirror and I can admit that I feel so ashamed I've done some dirt that I cannot forget I'm wipin' the blood, I'm wipin' my sweat The reason I killed him cuz' he posed a threat (ugh!) I got some sons and I got a daughter You playin' with me there's gonna be a slaughter I don't wanna live my life like this no more I don't wanna sell this dope The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid I don't know what I'mma do I'mma be a gangster forever Ain't no love in the streets And I don't trust you I'm facing my demons That evil, I've seen it The money, the root of all evil, believe me You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill Everytime I need paper this is the way that I feel My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Everytime you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Everytime you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you I'm trying to change my life for the better If I go to prison would they write a letter Would they even care, if I wasn't there It feels like I got haters everywhere Haters, suckers, motherfuckers I was built like no other It's a cruel world, they criticize your skin color Mobbin', robbin', homicide for something that makes them feel alive I'm always curious to find out where I'ma go when I die People hate me all the time but they ain't even met me yet I was born to win in last so that ain't nothin' I'ma sweat I came up off of sellin' that dope Have you ever had the cops break down your door Have you ever had the cops put you On the floor and rob all of your dope No, you don't know, how that feels You're totally broken and ready to kill You're praying to god Asking for a deal, "Oh lord, I can't afford a meal" I just want to go legit I just feel like a piece of shit I don't wanna live my life like this no more I don't wanna sell this dope The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid I don't know what I'mma do I'mma be a gangster forever Ain't no love in the streets And I don't trust you I'm facing my demons That evil, I've seen it The money, the root of all evil, believe me You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill Everytime I need paper this is the way that I feel My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Everytime you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you My brother told me do it for my nephew Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue One thing I know for certain Everytime you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you