Clifton Springs

I was born old I grew up but I got younger I was torn, cold Now I'm fine but there's this hunger And a thirst for the days Before I went and razed it all to the ground Got a job, found God I did everything they told me Spoiled the child, spared the rod And found someone new to hold me Though the love's not as real As what I used to feel when it All went wrong She was young, not scared She was everything I wanted I was dumb, unprepared Had no idea that I was haunted By the ghosts of a life The night I hid the knives and it all went wrong It's an old wound but it opened in a new way In a rest room in a rest stop on the thruway She calls up her parents And admits with embarrassment she was wrong Speaking of your mother This is how it goes When the world gets you down, I suppose You can fly away somewhere else Of your own volition, of your own accord When you're sad, when you're angry When you're bored You've got to do what's best for yourself I awoke, you were gone There was nothing left to hold onto I was blind, I was wrong But I could find you if I want to So I fly to the coast where The boys you love most Sing into your eyes I was lost, now I'm found I can see but miss the blindness Here's my cross, pound It's your mouth, your kiss, your kindness My stigmata's the regret for how I could have let it all go so wrong I'm going back to the place Where they laughed in my face When it all went, all went, all went wrong Yes, it all went Isn't this what you wanted, darling? All went wrong