Lullaby

Every time I die a little more inside

When you told me to speak on it, I'ma speak on it, fuck it

Mumble rap man

Mumble rap right?

That's what we doin'?

Yeah (Alright)

Wonder if God heard me pray when I was trying to repent

If he didn't, I know he heard my mother cry over rent

Then you wonder why the mood inside this room is so tense

No offense, but I don't really got nowhere to go vent

Oh yeah, success is like a drug, and I been high on the scent

Feel like I wasted all the money, and the time that I spent

Maybe the tears inside my eyes had me blind with revenge

I told her even if we crash, I'ma ride till the end

There I go lying again, don't know why I pretend

Hold up, let me try this again

Lord, you know I never open up

Abusing drugs never thinking I was dope enough

She's over me when I'm the one that she's supposed to love

At least my heart broke enough for the both of us

They told me play your part (Play your part)

Boy, we different, you smart

Let her lay in your bed, don't ever let a bitch in your heart

Still around the same ones that I was with from the start

Though the distance got us drifting part

Felt betrayed, swear to God till this day man

This shit hit my heart

Wanted to shine so bad that I got left in the dark, still love you

Can't help but see that kid in the park

Runnin‘ 'round the town looking for some shit we could start

Any issues I was right there with it (I was)

I bought my dream house, but I've been having nightmares in it

The game ugly, just tell me why you can't love me (Why?)

Or why the fuck you're ashamed of me, you can't judge me

That's why I stay numb

And the smartest thing I ever did was play dumb, uh

Staying up nights till my day comes

Old memories had me wishin' that we stayed young, huh

I'm a mess thinkin' less so I'm saying more

I talk to God about you so I'm praying more

That's why I smoke a hundred blunts straight

Pop's left, mom's cried for a month straight

Used to cry too, but I would never show her

Superwoman feel blessed if you ever know her

Look at all this shit that we made it through

They bugged the house and they raid it too

If that ain't ironic, I'm a crazy fool

Play it cool, baby, play it cool

They don't acknowledge my accomplishments

My op was just a optimist

I'm copping shit, but still I'm not convinced that this is opulence

I can probably fuck Pocahontas right out her Moccasins

Killing everything that I'm authoring like the offering

Ten stitches with my limbs twitching

You ever went through withdrawals till ya skin itches? Huh

Screaming fuck what you think

Tears falling while I write it down, smudging the ink

Uh, please pour out a couple of drinks

Sometimes I wish that I was up there with Chinx

You wouldn't even care if I ever died

So I wrote this for the tears that you'll ever cry

Lullaby