Hello dance

I'm sliding back into the old me

Want a cold turkey but I get the cold feet

Double cup codeine seem to control me

Everybody in trouble they want to involve me

S'pose it's the life that I asked for

Phone in my backpack, tapped by the taskforce

I'll be long gone 'fore I cop me a passport

Last four years, my whole life been on fast-forward

Sippin' juice, tryna slow it all down

Thinkin' what's the use, I should throw it all out

But it's better than a noose, and I know I'm worn out

I'm alone in my zone, everybody gone now

Burn all my bridges, I turn 'em to ashes

Burdened my bitch, while I'd work for them rations

I'd turned into something I hated with passion

But now, I'm going back into my old fashion

I hate it, wanted to leave this, I thought that I made it

Now, I'm pouring up, getting faded

Back on my bullshit, I stay medicated

I stay with the bush on me, kush is my fragrance

Get tired when the reaper close

Eat with my peeps, I don't keep me a heap of those

I need to know the D's gonna leave me 'lone

I don't do shit, I'm keeping low

I been keeping so low to the ground

That people don't know what I'm 'bout

Everyone think I be trappin' because

They see me with a sack of that loud

But really, you cats should know better

I got this money 'cause I'm a go-getter

I stay with the heat like a loaded beretta

I don't give a fuck, I stay loaded, forever

I fight with my demons, addicted to drugs

And I know if I quit 'em, then, they'd prob'ly let up

But I'm more likely to kill myself with 'em on accident

Hoping they make me feel better

I don't know what I've been doing these last couple years

But I feel like I'm gonna regret it

I only got love for the people who visited prison, and wrote me them letters

I been fuckin' up on that drink though, people watchin' me fade away

Goin' back to that old me, goin' back to that day to day

Goin' back to that struggle, straight back to that life

Going back to my double cup, even though I know it ain't right

Fuck, I'm getting skinny again

Everybody thinkin' you're an idiot, Ben

I dunno why I think I'ma win in the end

I put my phone on fuck it, I don't fit in with friends

I sit and pretend the codeine isn't fucking me up

Docs' says, "I'ma die, fuck it, I'ma see ya's

Dogs talk shit, but never do, when they see us

Most of these faggots hate on the team, wanna be us

I'm drowning, this water is over my head

Sinking whenever I'm sober in bed

Drink and I smoke in regret, it won't ever end

'Til I got that rope on my neck

But I never had a chance

Too many days, getting faded on benzodiazepines

Too many other contaminants

Slowly, it's snowballing into an avalanche

I'm sick of all the scratching, and fiending

I'm sick of piggybacking, these demons

I'm sick in the gut, 'less I'm wacked off of lean

I forgot my reality actually dreaming

I been whippin' around with no license

Fuck the law, dickin' 'em down, I don't like 'em

Bars so hard, people thinkin' I don't write 'em

Bitches ain't fuckin' with me, they thinkin' I'm so violent

Everybody wanna rap like Benny

Everybody thinkin' that they brain-numb

Every morning, I pack like twenty bongs straight

To my face in my bed, then I wake up

These demons, they keep on huntin'

I won't face 'em I keep on runnin'

No trust in a lane, don't fuck with you main

Team Huskii, no snakes in my team, one hunnit

I been fuckin' up on that drink though, people watchin' me fade away

Goin' back to that old me, goin' back to that day to day

Goin' back to that struggle, straight back to that life

Going back to my double cup, even though I know it ain't right

Fuckin' up on that drink though, people watchin' me fade away

Goin' back to that old me, goin' back to that day to day

Goin' back to that struggle, straight back to that life

Goin' back to my double cup, even though I know it ain't right

Fuckin' up on that drink though, people watchin' me fade away

Goin' back to that old me, goin' back to that day to day

Goin' back to this struggle, straight back to this life

Goin' back to this double cup, even though I know it ain't right