If You Know What's Good for You

I've been so chemically dependent Well adjusted and depressed I buy my thrills and pay my bills And they both get repossessed If I had the time or money to find myself Would I really become anybody else? From the moment adulthood dragged me Out of wonder and into work I've wondered why I work the dirt then pay to rent the earth It's harder than I want to dismiss the thought Under the thumb of the hand that feeds me It doesn't feel good Like I thought it would So do we just put our bones through the motions Until we're long in the tooth? Fistfuls of youth to remind us We don't reach out like we used to Collapse into the codependence of a sandalwood scented home When the air is sweet on the garbage heap, why would you go into parts unknown? When I start to see myself in somebody else do I make a change? Or am I the one who needs it? It's hard to tolerate The sound that ego makes When it's the only thing left in the room after you Buy the view and assume they'd let you take it with you So do we just put our bones through the motions Until we're long in the tooth? Fistfuls of youth to remind us That we don't reach out like we used to Optimistic limbs keep me in your grip 'Cause if you learn to let me go I'll never be more Than a photograph of the life I had before I pulled the curtain back And chose not to ignore that we all just Fear the end of automatic motion When there's nothing left of our youth It crosses my mind every night now If I found peace would I keep it?