Time Will Tell

It's four in the morning, I still cant get to sleep If time heals scars then why am I left to bleed All that stress from the past started affecting my dreams And I keep thinking if those things never happened would I be me She don't like to see me like this I won't hate if she leaves I won't blame her she's been patient for the way that its been Coz lately I turned into something I don't want to be All this stress gets to my head thats why you barely see me speak I stay cautious coz this shit is really not what it seems The only time I see my mates is when they're coppin' some weed So when they come around I'm actin like i'm off in a dream I don't want to be another number locked by police I hit the legs before they're getting what I've got in my jeans My sixth offence if I get caught thats why I'm hopping the creek I'll skip the fence and twist my ankle but I'm not gunna freeze I tell myself I'm gunna quit then only stop for the week I need someone by my side to help me get through all this madness My Aunty died last week and I still don't know what happened I call em when they need it but they never phone me back quick I've been feeling guilty for a bunch of shit my Dad did I'll probably hold this weight on my shoulders until my back twists We could never get a house - got stuck up on that blacklist Leave my flat with nothing and won't be back til the bags flipped Dreams of waking up in jail with sweat up on my mattress I dont wanna have to live my life like this Im slowly losing who I am and I cant find my grip Im as stubborn as they come but I still try to forgive I never asked em for some help but now I'm likely to slip She got my head filled with lies and I don't like that shit I dont want her in my life if I cant trust that chick But at the same time I'm only and I love that bitch Even when she's playing games I still run back quick