A Lost Promise

Is anyone out there? I promised if I made it out, I'd find love again I won't forget the life we've lived We'll never get back the time spent I won't pretend I'll find love again I faked a smile and found the end I'm tired of all the doubt The broken promises Don't know if I'll ever make me proud I'm sorry my life's a mess I'm trying to make it out But something pulls me in I never know how to find myself I'm sorry I can't commit I won't trust ever again Was I the cause of this? I want to know what I did to ruin this I'd love to find the reason I exist Just tell me if the lies will end I'm tired of all the doubt The broken promises Don't know if I'll ever make me proud I'm sorry my life's a mess I'm trying to make it out But something pulls me in I never know how to find myself I'm sorry I can't commit I won't trust ever again Was I the cause of this?