Roses

You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go This ain't a fucking hit I just need to vent It's February 25th another week just went It's been intense I needa get this album ready, Would be out already but I'm stuck inside a deep descent Even friends ask how long I'm going sober for Ever since the breakup I don't know no more I don't even know who I know no more I ain't in the know no more That's all I know and I don't need to know know more no no more I feel alone and I'm afraid of change But just as afraid if everything were to stay the same Disgusted sick I bathe in shame Fuck this shit I love my gift but hate my brain I'm, overwhelmed roaming through this lonely realm Time will only tell if my family and friends know me well A couple mates are probably hoping that I don't excel If you ain't got respect for the sober shell you can go to hell You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go Now your gone every night i gotta stay distracted That's why I'm making all these tracks it's so my brain is active I've been trynna make the greatest tracklist But it's hard when it feels like I'm fucking covered in hater magnets I still dream of you when it's clear as day I try to drink the fear away but it's hear to stay It's no surprise the very second I close my eyes All my omens rise I swear to god I could hear you say Off you go Enjoy the show Enjoy the sluts Enjoy the road Enjoy the bucks Enjoy the load of pointless stuff Enjoy the drugs Enjoy the rush Avoid the lows Yeah, that's what I always do Guess you always knew Even when I had a small breakthrough Every plan of staying sober would fall straight through Still I promise it would all change soon Yeah right, come on You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke You held me close and you felt my hope You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope But now your gone, off to hell I go Off to hell I go Off to hell I go