Oxygin

I know I need to learn to live with all the things I can't change I hate the fact that I feel nothing or I'm reeling in pain I need to shake this fucking habit, so I try, but I can't And I look down on other addicts when we're one and the same Remember back, I'm pushin' twenty, those were simpler times That's when we met, and ever since you're never far from my mind I broke my ankle playin' ball, and so it's you I'm prescribed And even through all of the pain, you make me feel I could fly A couple weeks, and now you're gone and now I'm feelin' the stress I always wanted to feel something, maybe nothing is best My friends and family start to question if I'm feelin' depressed But I don't really give a damn, just put me back on the meds I've been lost in my head My homie Jack said he dealt with the same shit He said he started drinkin' to deal with the pain quick All you need is a fifth and it's cool to remain lit So he handed me a bottle, said, "Take about eight sips" I'm faded, but I wanna feel straight numb So I drink the rest of the bottle, liquor burnin' my gums Woke up the next day at around a quarter to one My peers would say that "Man I had fun, right?" I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine But I've been feeling low and I don't know why Another night, I feel empty inside Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find Feel the weight lift off me Someone tell my mom I'm sorry I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright The present day been feelin' sick, think I'm just bidin' my time I take a shot of somethin' strong to keep that shit off my mind All my friends started families and they left you behind And here I am drinkin' any can or bottle I find My body took you in as blood and so we're never apart Some real shit, you the closest someone's been to my heart But just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart Just like everything I love, you fuckin' tear me apart I wanna be there for my son, daughter, wife—I mean my ex-wife now I guess that time really flies when you're drunk on the couch I wanna shake this fuckin' habit, I just don't know how So you would love to see me sick until I almost drown And so you keep me on the brink of barely livin' and death As long as I'm alive, yeah, you know you're gettin' my cheque You pray my son and daughter will follow me in my steps You'll create our loves a fact that I'm broke and broken and in debt Can go a day without food, I can't go a day without you When I try, I get the shakes 'til my face turns blue Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze You promised you would make me happy, we know that's not true I tried every drug in the book, but they never hit me the same I told my doc that I'm down, he put some pills in my name It doesn't matter the problem, the fix is always the same Always takin' the easy route, like I'm never willin' to change, damn Now blamin' everybody but me With you inside my system, everybody used to love me But now my friends, family, my kids, they can't even trust me Been losin' all my control and I let you fuckin' become me No more! I said no fuckin' more! I know you think I'm lyin', I said this to you before This time I'm fuckin' ready, it's time to show you the door This life is mine, it never was yours! I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine But I've been feelin' low and I don't know why Another night, I feel empty inside Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find Feel the weight lift off me Someone tell my mom I'm sorry I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright