Bedroom Hymn

Face down in my bed Asking, "why am I such a wreck?" Am I lost? Fell out with some friends Watch my parents get over-stressed Are we lost? But I hold on for a minute My mind keeps spinning Buried in the guilt that builds up deep in the life I'm living Am I still living? Neck deep, I'm swimming So far from the shoreline and I don't know if I'll make it 'Cause it feels like I'm drowning I can't breathe anymore When all is gone and I can't take more I try to hold it back, try to hold it back But it haunts my sleep, haunts my sleep 'Cause it feels like I'm drowning I can't breathe anymore When all is gone and I can't take more I try to hold it back, try to hold it back But it haunts my sleep, haunts my sleep Maybe I'm messed up From the demons that interrupt All my thoughts No, I can't stay hidden So paint me up like a villain For my faults But I hold on for a minute My mind keeps spinning Buried in the guilt that builds up deep in the life I'm living Am I still living? Neck deep, I'm swimming So far from the shore and I know 'Cause it feels like I'm drowning I can't breathe anymore When all is gone and I can't take more I try to hold it back, try to hold it back But it haunts my sleep, haunts my sleep 'Cause it feels like I'm drowning I can't breathe anymore When all is gone and I can't take more I try to hold it back, try to hold it back But it haunts my sleep, haunts my sleep Face down in my bed Asking, "why am I such a wreck?" Am I lost? You say you understand But I know that you may move on When I'm gone