Old Friends

Walking outside labyrinthine Over cracks along under the trees I know this town grounded in a compass Cardinal landed in the dogwood I keep going over it, over and over My steps iterate my shame How come every outcome is such a comedown? Lately afternoon with the shades drawn down I kept saying I just wanted to see it Saying, "What's wrong with that?" Needle shaking out lines in the compass Every outcome is such a comedown I knew it when I saw it So I did just what I wanted So I go through with this I knew happiness when I saw it I saw your boyfriend at the port authority It's a sort of fucked up place Well, so I averted my stride on a quick one He's coming back from going over to your place, huh? I feel like I could forget about it I feel like I can mellow out I don't feel undone in a big way There's nothing really bad to be upset about But when I thought I was getting better I woke up on the ground An appointment, oh disappointment A set back, oh another comedown As if I needed a reminder I do only what I wanna So I go through with this Walking out in the night-time springtime Needling my way home I saw Leah on the bus a few months ago I saw some old friends at her funeral My steps keep splitting my grief Through these solipsistic moods I should call my parents when I think of them Should tell my friends when I love them Maybe I should have gone out a bit more And you guys are still in town I got too caught up in my own shit It's how every outcome is such a comedown I knew it when I saw it Oh, I did just what I wanted So I go through with this I knew happiness when I saw it I saw it