When skinny tastes better than anything, you'll literally starve for perfection

Recovery doesn't have a day off.

I had to learn that the hard way

I was only 10 years old when 80 pounds became the goal

How could someone be so cold when weight was nothing I controlled

At 106 in the 6th grade, all I did was hide in shame

I thought I was overweight, would have done anything to trade

For a body like the magazines, anything but my reality

Couldn't face my own reflection, so I taught myself a lesson

Have you ever missed a meal and everything became so real

How was thin so damn ideal when I couldn't even feel

I didn't want the curvy shape, I just wanted to escape

So I took a chance on fate, wouldn't even touch a grape

By the time that I was 13, couldn't even fit in my jeans

Went from a simple size 3 to a size that was way too skinny

I lost more than I ever thought I'd lose

I never asked for a place in anorexia's shoes

It's not worth the struggle that comes with it

Oh, it's harder than I care to admit

It was pounds and pounds ago that I lost my self-control

Even hospitalized, I was too big in my eyes

I was just fading away, starving myself day by day

Even though 80 pounds felt great, I'd lost more than just weight

Sticking fingers down your throat is just not the way to go

Could've lost each pound on earth, but I ruined my self-worth

This disorder ain't a game, it is not something to play

Cause it'll leave a scar on your body and your heart

You've got to know your beauty

Life isn't like the movies

No matter what my size, I finally realized

I lost more than I ever thought I'd lose

I never asked for a place in anorexia's shoes

It's not worth the struggle that comes with it

Oh, it's harder than I care to admit

It was pounds and pounds ago that I lost my self-control

Even hospitalized, I was too big in my eyes

I was just fading away, starving myself day by day

Even though 80 pounds felt great, I'd lost more than just weight