Nobody cares until after it's done

I thought I wasn't that girl anymore

So I clutch my chest wondering what went wrong

Sometimes it's better to feel nothing at all

Now I hate the color yellow

Cause you were the sunlight in my darkest days

And you are just the voice that echoes

And these scars on my body make me feel like a failure, you got me through all of my bad days

So why'd you throw them all away?

And now I hate the color yellow

You promised me that we were forever

Oh, I'm sick of y'all saying I look happy

Unless it's on my skin you won't see misery

I was abused by my own fucking hands

Couldn't handle if I never saw you again

Oh, cause my anxious parts are just way too creative, can't help how I am and I still fucking hate it

My heart's in Mississippi, I used to be your baby, now like the raven, I'm left here wondering fearing

And now I hate the color yellow

Cause you were the sunshine in my darkest days

And you are just the voice that echoes

And these scars on my body make me feel like a failure, I almost made it to a thousand days, and then I threw it all away for you

And now I hate the color yellow 'cause you promised me that this was forever

And you told me that I'm just too codependent, so why couldn't you just help me defeat it?

Yeah, I said if you left me I wouldn't survive it, now here I am begging for the will just to fight it

And I hate the smell of Marc Jacobs Daisy, these voices in my head keep on driving me crazy

I hate December 18th 'cause it reminds me of you, I can't stop fucking crying, time ain't healing my wounds

You my only dream come true I never dared to dream before, now I'm hopeless, I'm full of darkness now, nothing more

And now I hate the color yellow

Cause you were the sunshine in my darkest days

Now you are just the voice that echoes

And these scars on my body make me realize you're really gone, and I hate what you've done to me, tell me how am I supposed to breathe?

Right now I'm supposed to be in your arms but can't be, and now I hate the color yellow

Cause all I see now are the tears in my eyes

You'd let me call you every day to make sure you still love me

You said you'd never do anything to fucking hurt me, but I hate the color yellow

It doesn't matter anymore so don't worry about me