Black Friday

Is this what I lived for? To be choked in a toy store While staring into hell There's something that's beautiful Being awake for my funeral You can close the casket now The plans for my father's hopeless seed Born into moral poverty Still, I wasn't an angel heaven sent To break through my cliché boundaries 'Cause Friday is black for me The dreamer has dreamed her dream When Friday is black There's no turning back 'Cause Friday is black for me Is there some lesson to learn Should I never have wanted? I never even got started Or were the decks always just this stacked I mean, it's really a godsend Clear my plans for the weekend But there's nothing to subtract I don't want your half-baked sympathy When did it save those in need? Still, I thought that angels did exist But now I hope they plan to end it quick 'Cause Friday is black for me Only my ashes will see the sea When Friday is black There's no turning back 'Cause Friday is black for me At first I didn't know what she was to me At first I didn't know why I cared Or why I wanted To hold her and rock her to sleep Did I need her more than she needed me? Maybe I'm wrong She can go on her own 'Cause I'm leaving 'Cause Friday is black for me Only my ashes will see the sea When Friday is black There's no turning back 'Cause Friday is black- You're not dead yet