The Entire History of You

I'm finding myself less and less To decline something to feel, something to taste To let go of my mind through drug abuse and all the pain I know that I have changed to be just like you, to be just like you Every single time I think of you I can't help but get upset Constant, disgusted, outrageous and nauseous You know that I'm not sleeping well but you don't fucking care My dreams are depleting just tainted and lonely I'm sorry that it's come to this, my greatest fear that I couldn't resist It made so much sense to do what you did but telling me "you're okay" is the opposite I wish I could say what you did to me without sounding like a hypocrite I just can't do this anymore, I'm sick of being ignored I'm finding myself less and less To decline something to feel, something to taste To let go of my mind through drug abuse and all the pain I know that I have changed to be just like you, to be just like you Take me away to a place that can't hurt me Take me away to a place that won't leave me Take me away from here, I'm coming down I feel I'm the poison that's killing you so sweet, so selfish Goodbye I can't look at you I feel so sick, so sick of who I am So sick of fucking trying I don't want to pretend that I'm okay with this I'm killing myself just to fix what you've broken (Fix what you've broken) You've taken all of me, I hope you like what you've stolen I'm getting withdrawals, my head is so cluttered What have I become? I've never been so disgusted You know who you are, you know who you are Why won't you help me? Why won't you look at me? I'm the one that you refuse to see Yeah I don't know what to say to you You were never there, you were never there Why won't you look at me? Why are you scared of me?