This Life I Have

I hate my life, I hate my friends I hate the way the Notebook ends I hate my job, I hate my car I hate the cute girls at the bar I hate my band, I hate my songs I hate the kids who sing along But worst of all You made me hate the things I love Now I love these drugs that numb the pain I love the way your knuckles taste I love the voices in my head That tell me, "Nick, you should be dead!" The hated life that I've got's real I'm reminded every day That I will never, ever, ever, ever Ever, ever, ever be happy That's how it goes I'm just having a bad night, baby Yeah, maybe this could be alright So much to live for, I could die I think that this could be the start Of a new life (how's your new boyfriend?) Now I hate myself, I hate my clothes I hate that my facial hair won't grow I hate my brain and how it thinks I hate my narcissistic tendencies My lovely shade of "Give it up" It takes so much to loosen up So I pop another pill And watch the world give up on me Watch the world give up on me Watch the world give up on me, yeah I don't deserve your attention I don't deserve it one bit I'm sorry if this song or if this show Ain't what you wanted You worked so many hours Saving up, so you could make it 'Til the website ripped you off And went and bought up all the tickets Now we're eye to eye While I self-examine my, my pretty mind My convoluted, pure depression Your opinion, it haunts me I just want you to want me I want my life, I want it back I want the good times that we had So I'll just write what I feel down And hope the masses sing aloud I love these songs, I love my fans I take back everything I said Yeah, I'll enjoy this life I have (oh, oh, oh) This life I have (oh, oh, oh) This life I have (oh, oh, oh) This life I have (oh, oh, oh) This life I have This life that I have