Lonely Battle

Tell me what do you see when you look at me I'm pretty sure you can't tell that I am going through hell From the outside you can't see the battle going on inside of me The twisted game that I don't even understand myself And I feel so ashamed of the dysfunction in my brain So I decide to smile and laugh it all away I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am hiding, I'm hiding all of my pain I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am my own worst enemy The funny thing is that I know I don't have to do this on my own But how can I expect anyone to love The part of me that I hate so much I feel so afraid to disappoint the ones I love They might run away from me, cause I also would if I could So I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am hiding, I'm hiding all of my pain I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am my own worst enemy Carrying myself through the days Then when I'm alone I break Feeling like a failure Beating myself up Am I doomed to live in shame and emptiness Wishing I was better, but it's never good enough I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am hiding all of my pain I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am my own worst enemy I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am hiding, I'm hiding all of my pain I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am my own worst enemy But I am fighting, I'm fighting I keep on fighting, I'm fighting I am fighting, I'm fighting a lonely battle I am my own worst enemy