Chagrin

Mama used to always tell me I was just so special All these flaws so pure means I'm just ugly in the flesh so I feel like I'm dying, but I only grow resentful Kinda felt life meaningful, but now I feel regretful Papa used to tell me I was handsome and a star But now I've got no friends, no lover and no fucking heart I just feel so bitter and a piece of little shit so Like my happiness is always in a state of limbo Fucking dummy, please come find me in different depression naps You could conform or get worn out Heart broken, I am so torn now And hopeless, I am so bored out my mind Like Sarah, she's gone now Still feel the high like I'm getting on board now Plain bitches storm out Speak volumes on this, raise the volume on this Rage comma sadness, bliss I mean, how could i forget? Speak volumes on this, raise the volume on this Rage comma sadness, bliss I mean, how could i forget? The future conjures suspense The futile, the nonsense repent Losers, surrounded by them I feel swept by this nuisance, what do I do if Suicide thoughts lodge into this? Like my brain has a virus like a shitty computer Shift to some new shit Sit with this, groove to it I spit shit while drooling wit Resilience, truthfulness I would lose my shit if I knew you did The shit I could never prove you this Now my minds filled with doubt Never mind, I've announced my drug binge is in full effect Downward spiral Dare to elaborate On a platter, I had the fate That grew matter and after days I grew madder Cause I'm married to the game, let's gather Words like sticks for the fire Slather concern woven on some shit No piss like strong bladders The flaws of human campaigns So even if you floss Boozing with champagne You still find ways to complain Outrageous, raising standards How great the aim is what grants us our constraints from fulfillment I still get flashbacks to depression It oppresses my feelings The sweet disappointment of seeing the girl you worked up the courage to Walk with another guy, enjoying her time Freeze in the moment Revert to the void that I'm zoned in All i wanna do is fantasize I, I Mama used to always tell me I was just so special All these flaws so pure means I'm just ugly in the flesh so I feel like I'm dying, but I only grow resentful Kinda felt life meaningful, but now i feel regretful Papa used to tell me I was handsome and a star But now I've got no friends, no lover and no fucking heart I just feel so bitter and a piece of little shit so Like my happiness is always in a state of limbo I feel like days are metaphor for humans Lightness and darkness It starts off bright, but as time progress It harvest less energy for plants to grow Relationships come and go and lovers become disowned Channel my emotions without a remote I could say I'm enjoying the ride, but all these years ate me alive Now, I could say I'm enjoying this ride, but all these years ate me alive I could say I'm enjoying the ride, but all these years ate me alive Now, I could say I'm enjoying this ride, but all these years ate me alive I could say I'm enjoying the ride, but all these years ate me alive Now, I could say I'm enjoying this ride, but all these years ate me alive I could say I'm enjoying the ride, but all these years ate me alive Now, I could say I'm enjoying this ride, but all these years ate me alive Tell that bitch I don't need her no more Thought it was love, it was just pretty face Just a pity, fake titys in my face, in the city Great getting wasted, fade So it's safe to say I just need pussy and I'll be on my way All these songs will play I'll lead on and praise All for the love of the money and the game Fucking funny, hazardous like rude druggies in dune buggies The whole worlds against me, so who loves me? Your girl sends me nudes occasionally, but truthfully she's too slutty Fuck it, I'll still fuck her I'm too rugged, I'm too in love with the feeling Two pills deep, feeling freaky with a cool rhythm Fool bitches like floozys with lucys influencing their children Fill them in on new eras Take care of my mind state and switch up