Through the Grapevine

To be is not the way to be I played to keep, but came to see I played myself It's plain to see I played this beat to make these dreams appear complete I hate the fear, the pain reveres my aim to please I can't compete or draw the line from A to B Or draw the line between the things I want and things I need It's hard to be discreet when everything is bleak And every thought that lingers really makes me sink Into the muddy waters and I oughta stop this cycle Love is vain, unstable like my vitals Caught the bug that made me like you, but I am the type to get lost As I fight through the fog, in spite of what's wrong like typos Type of psycho to tip the scales Balance hype with holy grails of moments that uphold these spells The culprit of my loneliness pulls me back like a ponytail I slowly scale the hope and pull closer None of you know me well enough to ever pry my composure Cold blooded, times up, I told ya whether I fail and fall over Nail in the coffin until I'm sober Writing about the darkness, motherfucker, I live it too Comparing me to rappers I don't even fucking listen to Simple truth is I'm a simple dude Every verse I birth reveals the shitty truth I'm cynical, feel nimble when I'm living off the tempos Evolving, soft and gentle, exhausting my fucking temper Do without the self critical pity, I reached the pinnacle of hell till I felt shitty Spat frigid lines till all of my demons felt chilly I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time But the truth is brutal That's the shit that I heard through the grape vine I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time The truth is fucking brutal That's what I heard through the grapevine Shitty ass people bound to flip and turn evil I might slip into comatose like I'm sick and on the needle But I know that shit is lethal, so I'll keep my fucking distance Wicked prescriptions Nicotine, I love when it kicks in All these addictions feel like a fucking crucifixion Who will even listen to these tunes? I've been conflicted with the rules of my condition Once I drew blood, I felt distant from my true love I won't give in to the truth of my decisions I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time But the truth is brutal That's the shit that I heard through the grape vine I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time The truth is fucking brutal That's what I heard through the grapevine Well, I'm thinking everybody got me fucked up Till the sticking point, love's been hitting my heart like nunchucks Take trails to find truth and trust guts Face pale, go to sleep whenever the suns up Sun Zu, you dumb fools These rough cuts of rigid rhythms are driven to make my blood rush If you're sitting, just listen to what I construct Stuck up bitches are picky, so when I'm spitting I hope they could shut the fuck up I would hate to assume that most critics are truly rude This shit sounds like Hooty Hoo meets Judy Blume Takes a lot of fucking guts to never give a fuck or fume Whether you doubt or prove if I ever could win or lose Ever so dense and cruel I'll never defend my views or my tendencies and my dues Centipede, I move with a gentle ease And refuse to attend to your little rules Evident, you're a lie, I'll lend a piece of my truth Wither away on any given day Twitching with the wicked withdrawals the K-Pins gave Sticking to the script, dissolved, I can't be saved Ever since Pre-k, mama told me be safe Oughta tune you motherfuckers out like T-Pain Legit to a tee like the way that I numb pain Either that or bleed until my thoughts are fucking blood stained Life is so far from the mundane bum days I just need a pick me up Fuck your pity, I'm pretty much petty enough To divvy up schemes to defeat these evil fucks Leave me alone, I'm in control Gleaming, bitch I ball till I fall No off season, I off these demons till they dissolve Off the wall, I'm stuck Sever them all, the rush of letting 'em know I'm spitting flows till they shut the fuck up Off the wall, I'm stuck Sever them all, the rush of letting 'em know I'm spitting flows till they shut the fuck up I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time But the truth is brutal That's the shit that I heard through the grape vine I can't help, but to feel a little suicidal That's my baseline, distorted just like the bass line Whatever it takes, they said it takes time The truth is fucking brutal That's what I heard through the grapevine