Holdin On / Butterflies

Sometimes I wish I could call you up But I know we ain't spoke in months So I delete your contact acting like I ain't memorize your phone number If we could link just one more time I think that would be enough I just can't explain myself It's like I hate you But I ain't mad at all I still keep your picture in my wallet I just can't put up a front For this I'm wrong, I'm sorry But know my pride outweighs my heart I can't pretend you ain't did me wrong And I can't claim I been a saint at all I wonder why I can't give a fuck Sometimes I wonder if I know how to love Steady holding on I could take you places Baby just hold my arm And like Marvin said We goin' get it on From night time to dawn Don't try to hide it now I know you been loving my charm But why you keep your guard up Yea I know I scarred ya But since then I been tryna bring good karma I make mistakes Same way you make mistakes Only difference is I don't rub it in your face So quick to point a finger when shit goin' astray Breaking shit all over the place Now we 3 hours late And you duck and dodge the help that I be throwing your way While I'm ducking, dodging shoes I gave you Valentines Day Like everything I said and did Meant everything till today I feel like you can just forget bout us and part your own way Part your own way Look around if you can't find I'm on the way to better place Even when I'm thinking that it's over 24 hours later you be tryna call my phone up And tell me how I'm wrong for not tryna save us no more I'm not bout to chase you You say that you done Aight it's done I'm not ever gonna hold ya If I'm really what's always fucking you over I rather die than be the reason why you only wanna be alone Plus You cry every single night Tears coulda formed an ocean How you think that make me feel When you tell me I'm the worst I put my all, I've been real I would have gave you everything Have my last meal Have my last bill We both hurt, I never cared I made sure that you was healed Steady taking time to be alright I tell myself that she just being real weird She missed her medication She don't hate you Her mind is everywhere Forgave when you hate Cus when you love I feel lifted in the air So many times we took each other back I know to everyone it's strange But crazy thing is if I'm only speaking facts I wouldn't wanna have it any other way Still wishing it could work out I just wanna say Why you keep a hold of time Why you keep a hold of time Can you please let go of time Can you please let go of time And I keep wasting my time with somebody like you And I'm done I don't wanna see your face I don't wanna talk to you I don't wanna hear from you No puedo creer que eh perdido mi tiempo con este imbécil Refreshing memories of my adolescence Just to have a better admirance of those average lessons I was taught Uh uh A bigger appreciation was added to my blessings Now it's all tragic checking's Playing chess with other checkmates Checkmating who was thought to be the king Now I'm out here second guessing I'm the one that's on, not the pawn As well as wondering if everything is as great as expected Cus last week my necklace Was so precious to this special female Now she don't care for details Off track the convo derails No more wondering if I'm bigger than Goldlink's Or if those gold links will help me get bigger than Chinx RIP to them fallen soldiers Call em over to ask to broaden shoulders Load the pistol Kiss of death Lips to trigger Hold your breathe Butterflies in my stomach and butterflies in hers But if I Lose my mind Then I start losing mine Them cockroaches grow inside A hate corrupts my mind There's flowers deep in hers The only thing that works for her is them curves There's butterflies within the world Now look ahead They leading us to the side that's opposite of urn We all goin' see the future Kama Sutra Fucking her, fucked me over Karma suits ya Saw myself kissing on her neck Second guessing once more If that piece was a bigger blessing Butterflies up in the necklace Questioning, but what if I lose that piece? Heading back to the side of the urn Cus I'm lying Mistruth leads to dying There's a fire deep inside me and I'm burning Glorifying any accessories as pieces When really a piece of Quran is stored up inside it I'm asking God if shit is all the same I'm fucking stupid Misusing the truth to help me get some booty Sexual homi, for the punani they'll catch a body And more talk of my silver shining Goin' make me lose my mind And so them cockroaches overcome them butterflies inside me Who am I see? Said who am I see? Said who am I see?