My Anxiety

When bad things happen I feel so scary and dark That is why we must find the light Ah-ha, found it! In a grey room Bus is leaving Take a bite And call it eating Call it thrifty Call it fashion I just dress up Pure compassion Tell me why I'm choking on air Simple fears of growing long hair Anxiety, just leave me I feel a thousand eyes staring at me Waiting on the deep end I can feel them creep in Tell me I'm a failure Why you think I defend? Father times a hostage Felt it all through college Puking on the school bridge Feeling sick, acknowledged I fee like I'm supposed to be someone or be doing something 'Cause if I'm not, every time it's like a sting Empty mailbox Friends come near Pack the bong And smoke it clear Call me lazy Call me bad Feeling numb So I won't feel sad Judge me from the outside I'm not fine Tell me why I'm stuck right here Wasting time, but time's what I fear Anxiety, just hear me I feel a thousand eyen just staring at me Waiting on the deep end I can feel them creep in Tell me I'm a failure Why you think I defend? Father times a hostage Felt it all through college Puking on the school bridge Feeling sick acknowledged Sleeping on a cold floor Wishing life would have more I can't even breathe now Annie, can I sleep now? Breath is kinda racing Just hyperventilating Sometimes I'm debating If Ill end up graduating