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I can't believe it's been a year Since I kissed my fears On their salty lips And said to them, "I love you" I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For 20 years and look at me now I've got something to say About the last 12 months I've lived I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you should know I take a pill every day To help me deal with life And, oh, my God I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt To feel at all I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For 20 years and look at me now I've got something to say About the family that I've lost I hope my mother and my father think That they raised a healthy boy Who needs the help of a shrink To even leave the house? And, oh, my God I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt To feel at all I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you (I just thought you should know) I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you (I just thought you should know) I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For 20 years and look at me now And now, and now I'm finding a way to forget everything that I know I can't believe it's been a year Since I kissed my fears On their salty lips And said to them, "I love you all" Don't ask, just follow Repeat and swallow Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat Don't ask, just swallow Repeat and follow Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat My best friend is a man, with a lab coat and a green I hold my shaking hand and he gives me medicine He almost makes me feel at home He slowly steals my soul I tell him I still feel alone "Don't worry. Someday, I promise, you will feel whole" Oh, my God I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of Oh, my God I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of