Monsters (feat. Ricia)

I wish I could talk to the monsters Have a conversation with the monsters Ask them if they even know they're monsters I wonder if they even know they're monsters I just wanna talk to you one time, yea I really don't want to, but I have to, gotta ask you Did you really have to? (Ah) My trust wasn't even that bad and I would've put it past you Now I don't trust shit 'Cause you wanna do that little dumb shit Wonder if you went to sleep that night Probably felt bad, slept it off, woke up, ate something, right I ain't eat nothin', way too disgusted, bitch I was up cryin', 'pain in my stomach, bitch Was it just tryin' to help you or control me? I hope it helped you 'cause it broke me I went to the pew to consult me But it didn't change, I can never be the old me Feeling lonely and I ain't want no one to hold me 'Cause I ain't wanna meet another you Probably take a day, or a year, to get over for you But for me I don't think I'm gettin' through it When I have kids I'ma be so overprotective Play detective 'cause I can't let Knowing what you did to me, happen to them, not again I hope you know I cry sometimes I wonder if that gives you strength Don't know how you feel, but I feel like shit, for real Really almost slit my wrists, for real Bet you ain't know I have nightmares did you? (Did ya?) Bet you probably don't care (Don't care) Probably somewhere with a smile on your face Not knowing that I feel this way, damn I wish I could talk to the monsters Have a conversation with the monsters Ask them if they even know they're monsters I wonder if they even know they're monsters And I'll cry, one last time But I won't let you hurt me anymore Still alive And I'll die, before I let you hurt me Anymore I can't erase it I know what you're going through, trust me, I really do But it can be worse if you let it be This is your moment, to see from a different view I know it's a struggle 'cause you would be happier If you could forget what they did to you I know they invaded, but you still amazing That's somethin' that they couldn't steal from you That's somethin' nobody can take from you No, it's not your fault so quit blaming you They knew it was wrong when they did it, but kept going with it It's nothin' you made 'em do Keep hugging that pavement it'll strangle you I know you can make it, I pray for you Accepting what happened is brave of you It's brave for your body, you made it through And I'll cry, one last time But I won't let you hurt me anymore Still alive And I'll die, before I let you hurt me Anymore