Left Behind

Don't take me back to the old version of me When I didn't even give a single fuck About anyone or anything And it's no wonder I'm still so fucking lonely After all the years I spent with this dread Destroyed by these thoughts in my head When will I manage to push away All those who cared for me Just a slave to my hypocrisy It's like I'm stuck (it's like I'm stuck) Held down by my own ways Remembering all the pain that I've been forced to put on display And maybe it's just too much afear I no longer can ignore I just thought there would be more But just know It terrifies me deep inside my bones Because this lonely life Is the hardest truth I have ever known So medicate, alleviate I can't escape from the shadow I've become Because this crushing weight upon my shoulders Has left me undone And I swear that I just want to be better But sometimes everything spirals out of control And it's just something I've never once believed in Giving up a part of my fucking soul I never said that I was perfect (perfect) But I've been convinced That I am just worthless What have I become? And all these passing lights Keep trying to guide me home But all I can see is loss It's all I've ever known But just know It terrifies me deep inside my bones Because this lonely life Is the hardest truth I have ever known So medicate, alleviate I can't escape from the shadow I've become Because this crushing weight upon my shoulders Has left me undone It's like I'm stuck (it's like I'm stuck) Held down by my own ways Left behind Nothing left to save of me There's nothing left to save of me