Still Life

I'm sinking, I'm sinking I don't know what the hell I was thinking My past mistakes are draped in my shame I never thought I'd be in my twenties Hoping desperately to amount to something Marking down the days Will these things ever change? Or will they stay the same? So here I am With my heart in my hands Searching for the chance To be something more I fear that it's gone And I've tried my best to hold on But I'm slipping now With no one to catch me My heart beats in time With the sound, with the sound A ticking clock constantly counting down I never dreamed I'd be in my twenties A hole in my chest that left me with nothing Old memories up in flames Only myself to blame Can you remember the day? When we told ourselves That we would never be like them Another spoke on a wheel of bullshit I promised you That there was way more to life than this I swear I tried so hard Can't believe it's all falling apart I fought to get this far Only to fail, only to fail So here I am With my heart in my hands Searching for the chance To be something more I fear that it's gone And I've tried my best to hold on But I'm slipping now With no one to catch me I've tried so hard To feel just like I used to I'd rather feel this pain Than nothing at all I've fought so hard To try and break the cycle A failure I'm forced to meet Each and every day