I'm alive
I'm alive
To the existential dread
I let run through my head
The truth is that you hurt me for so long
And here's my celebration song
I know that years from now
When my final flame runs out
I'll be a grain of sand
Running through a stranger's hand
But right now
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive, I lived to see today
I lost so much along the way
And that's fine
'Cause I'm alive
I've been so hurt for so long
I've been so hurt for so long
I've been so hurt for so long
I've been so hurt for so long
Well, I'm done (I've been so hurt for so long)
Trying to run (I've been so hurt for so long)
From all the things that make me feel alive (I've been so hurt for so long)
For fear that I might just catch fire (I've been so hurt for so long)
'Cause I've earned
A couple days amongst the sun
God knows I've more than paid my dues
For all the months that I didn't wanna live through
The sleepless nights
The bloodshot eyes
This blissful pain contextualized
I went to death's door, he let me inside
But for all my want
He couldn't look me in the eyes, I
I've been so hurt for so long
