I'm Only Me (When I'm Not Sober)

I just got home, it's 3 a.m. I must confess for I have sinned, but Tomorrow night I'ma do it again, again I've been obsessed with stupid men Little depressed, but then again Maybe it's just 'cause I'm making bad decisions, 'cause I'm only me when I'm not sober And I've been drunk since last October I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same I'm only me when I'm not sober I'm blacked out when the party's over I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't numb the pain I'm only me when I'm not sober Mmm I'm all alone, don't have no friends I'm always home, but can't pay my rent It ain't a joke 'cause I'm broke and I smoke but I'm tryna quit, quit I got a problem and it ain't healthy I call my momma, she tries to help me But I don't care much about the consequences, 'cause I'm only me when I'm not sober And I've been drunk since last October I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same I'm only me when I'm not sober I'm blacked out when the party's over I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't numb the pain, oh I fall asleep on a bed with no sheets, but It's not a disease It ain't addiction if I can kick it whenever I please 'Cause I'm only me when I'm not sober And I've been drunk since last October I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same I'm only me when I'm not sober (no) I'm blacked out when the party's over I take a walk out in the rain, the rain But it just doesn't numb the pain I'm only me when I'm not sober Mmm