What If It's Not

When did the nights get heavy? When did the music stop? All of my brightest memories You'd add up all of them I didn't want you with me But I don't want you gone Looking at my history There's a lot I was running from There's a lot I was running from And what if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? And what if it's the best I'll ever have? I already messed it up I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised I won't quit but I want to What if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? Tell me it's not When did I get so tired? What am I tired of? Why didn't I say I'm sorry? And I knew that I was wrong Time's not waiting for me And I wish that it was I was racing through our story I don't know what I was running from And what if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? And what if it's the best I'll ever have? And I went and messed it up I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised I won't quit but I want to What if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? Tell me it's not Tell me it's not But what if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? And what if it's the best I'll ever have? I already messed it up I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised I won't quit but I want to And what if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? And what if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? And what if it's the best I'll ever have? And I went and messed it up I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised I won't quit but I want to What if it's the best I'll ever have? What if it's not? Tell me it's not Tell me it's not, tell me it's not