First Love (feat. Yours Truly)

First loves don't leave you, the needles & pins My phantom limb likes to cry full of gin She's a molten mistake, lightning blue at the wake She just hangs tight And I meant what I said at the foothills Won't you walk me, talk with me, give me tonight Ancient ruins bullied by sky scraper lights Hungry & homeless I creep into the glow of it's Lonely, dying flame, I think I want to Be the memory that you turn to When you're drunk & your empty 'cause you're mine But at the same time I want to forget you Take a gun to the mantle And spin myself into a storm of grey skies I'll climb all the trees and I'll pray for a lightning strike Tamed into numbness, it's what I have become since The person you recognize First loves conditioned like poisonous fate With optimism we just contradict Was I just your mistake, cinnamon to the taste Bitter but graceful You know I meant what I said in the moment But now I'm pendulum sentiments, swaying while I cry Destined for abattoirs, lovers only live A penny for your thoughts, I would kill for a kiss First loves are lethal, dilute all you like Reticent discontent laboured in stride Hear the acid rain dripping down the water pipes to the ocean floor And I meant what I said you're an angel You were sent to me, carefully right at the time That I needed a petal to throw into the fire Something pretty and impermanent that I could admire