Drugs x Boys x Drugs

Why's it only half past eight When i can't wait to sleep another night? Vacation from yourself Do other boys need that sort of thing? I wanted, maybe, I don't know To not want or just maybe, to let it go I gotta write this note I guess Meet some friends i used to know Ellen says she can't believe it's me Me neither, i've grown cold And she's done loads of drugs and boys and drugs I miss me just as much But can't keep up the strength to stay in touch Gotta go now Here goes Hiding in the back room Lipstick face and act cool Trying to shut it out Here goes Smiles i used to call home Towns that leave you no choice Notes i have to write So yell it to my face "How'd you let this happen baby?" Said "if this was today I'd leave without a thought but i was Scared to be alone" At seventeen years old that feels like love It could fool anyone Love, we're only halfway there But i can't wait to see what's 'round the block Vacation from myself I might just move out and stay there til i rot If i'd been older, love I might've just made the right choice but i've not I gotta go now