Con Man

I've been staring at my shoes For an hour from across the room Made a list in my head Why I should stay in bed, far away from you My mind got the best of me On New Years eve I let go of everything Wasn't ready Sweaty palms and crumbling plans Imposter thoughts in lucid hands Like I was tricked by a con man I remember your face But are you still the same as I left you All these fears came out at me I left back in twenty seventeen Dulled the light in us, I'm sorry Cuz every time that I get sad I get so scared I'll fall into my past Again, again, again My mind got the best of me On New Years eve I let go of everything Wasn't ready Sweaty palms and crumbling plans Imposter thoughts in lucid hands Like I was tricked by a con man I think it's hard to love me sometimes Friends take days to answer texts I have dreams every night But they don't leave when I open my eyes I'll be okay (I'll be okay)