That One Party Last Year...

2AM, my head's on fire Beer bottles on my white shirt I just need more than your lighter Cuz it's late and we're both hurt Stumbled out into the street, my ride's a no show Chasing out after me, it's time to go home Burnt lungs swallowing fear Heads turned don't leave me here At that one party last year It always takes me back in my head to a time when your knuckles were on my cheeks And I just bury things that leave me crazed and sad and haunt me Your friend's talking you up like you paid them to Asking where I would be if I didn't have you Must be sleeping, dreaming to think you made me She's throwing up, overdosing, I don't wanna be here What if there's awkward silence And we end up caring If we all go down And I can't hold my breath What if these walls were paper And we could ignore them What if all we wanted Was all we had You're saying 'It's my birthday, tell me you love me Even if you might be mad' But we threw words at each other I would never take back