Wreckage

I want to feel life leave these hands Convinced I should not exist without worth as a man A failure I have been cast My identity is a vacant mask Been hiding this for years, so here's my final act The nails in your wrist cut the blades from mine God, I tried! I'm blinded on a midnight drive I'm dying for your light I'm in a head-on collision Burned past all recognition Breathing in smoke and dust Taste the dirt, fuel and blood This reoccurring condition Drives me to it over and over and over I'm piling up the wreckage Is this the only way to end it? I need a miracle! God, you get more lost with every suicidal thought I'm stranded directionless, fatally flawed Where were you when they deemed me worthless? Where are you when I'm struck by serpents? When depression breaks the surface When I'm cold, when I'm lying unconscious? Heart struggling to hear it's calling Heart struggling to hear it's calling I'm blinded on a midnight drive I'm dying for your light I'm in a head-on collision Burned past all recognition Breathing in smoke and dust Taste the dirt, fuel and blood This reoccurring condition Drives me to it over and over and over I'm piling up the wreckage Is this the only way to end it? I need a miracle! If you love as you say you love Then give me something that's tangible If you say you're always in control Then stop my hand and pull the gun from my throat Salvage my soul Reclaim this life or I swear I'll end it myself I'm in a head-on collision Burned past all recognition Breathing in smoke and dust Taste the dirt, fuel and blood This reoccurring condition Drives me to it over and over and over I'm piling up the wreckage Is this the only way to end it? I'm piling up the wreckage Is this the only way to end it? I need a miracle!