I tried to keep a steady hand
Tumble blocks, start again
I held your side when you let go
And you came back well-rehearsed
In holding your own
A broken seal, a past self known
Retrieve my heart from the Alamo
I need it here to touch your skin
Reconfigure, deconstruct, and begin
The centers shrunk between your eyes.
Sharper corners, broader sides
And I felt weak in woman's wear
Genderfucked, dilated, stuck holding a stare
You taught me how to guard myself
To keep my heart unscathed in health
I think you got carried away
Reached out your hand
It carried you away
Well, it's life in drag
Well, it's life in drag
You wore an armor that covered your face
(It's life in drag)
I wore hands high to show truce and embracing
(It's life in drag)
Who taught you how to hate yourself?
Who forced you to confide in spell?
Mistook 'pathetic' for empathy
Cast a stone at the foe and the stone hit me
And I held your hand in ritual to show disarming
While you were a weapon inside yourself, inside your body
I can't pretend
I can't conceal my apprehension
When pressed against the callous of your palm
I reconciled
Because you couldn't feel me there
And you wore binary like a badge of fucking honor
While I struggled dealing with the loss of yet another
Life in drag
