Alone

I am alive, you think that I'd be optimistic Look at my pride, should know by now, I'm truly gifted It's what you asked for growing up, remember wishing Things ain't the same, I'm kinda strange, my darkness sparking interest Not pretending, my life a tight rope, barely hanging on I socialize in crowds, but literally I feel I don't belong Try moving on? Ask why I'm cold, people done me wrong Problem solved, so just like Trump I had to build a wall Started raining, now it's pouring, but can't rain forever Heart is aching, just give it time, know it will get better God forsaken, don't lead me down that path I won't return These nightmares keep me wide awake, I try to sleep, but toss and turn I'm on the highway 'bout to swerve, watching as my life flashes Hennessy might take control, had one too many, vision blurry Close encounter, grab the wheel, now we back on track I'm not praying for an early casket, I still wanna rap As I get older, I am careful who I stand by I'm disconnected from the world and I don't know why Constantly distressed, under pressure, tryna be my best My demons waiting patiently, might let 'em out to play, I guess I'm losing grip, I can never sleep My mind wonders, put it on repeat They tell you "Hold on, stay strong, don't bleed" Fight another battle they don't ever see I've been on a dark, scary road I don't wanna do this no more Tell me, why I feel so alone? I don't wanna feel so alone I've been on a dark, scary road I don't wanna do this no more Tell me, why I feel so alone? I don't wanna feel so alone I don't wanna feel so alone I don't wanna feel so alone Do I control my thoughts, or do my thoughts control me? I'm so relentless, but inside I'm dying slowly These pointless conversations I keep having with myself Well, now they're kinda getting old, no wonder why I'm overwhelmed So detrimental to my health, it's like a vicious fuckin' spell Downing booze until I'm oozing to forget the pain I felt Cannot compromise, there comes a point, I gotta draw the line Or suffer with these consequences on my own so often I I'm losing grip, I can never sleep My mind wonders, put it on repeat They tell you "Hold on, stay strong, don't bleed" Fight another battle they don't ever see I've been on a dark, scary road I don't wanna do this no more Tell me, why I feel so alone? I don't wanna feel so alone I've been on a dark, scary road I don't wanna do this no more Tell me, why I feel so alone? I don't wanna feel so alone I don't wanna feel so alone I don't wanna feel so alone