Barely Hanging On

I'm lost, again Tryin' to find my way back home Still don't know where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning I'm lost, again Tryin' to find, my way back home Still don't know, where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning I been livin' for the weekend When, really, should be livin' in the moment Right now, 'bout to plummet, off the deep end I don't know if I wanna keep goin' Lotta people, depending on me Made a bit of money, but I ain't complete Mind keeps racing, I cannot sleep Bottled up emotions, I'm so weak Not a cry for help, but often feels, like I'm under a spell Got shit in my head, I don't know who to tell Say time heals everything, I'm trapped to hell I'm becoming pessimistic, will I excel? Honestly, I'm tired, sick of myself On the outside, lookin' in, thinkin' I'm well Lost the desire, tryin' to repel I'm reaching out, uh So much pain in my heart, but still, I haven't given up on love Come alive in the dark, write my thoughts, 'cause they're so robust I don't wanna open up, I put that faith in, there's no more trust I just wanna be happy, without that, I'ma be forever stuck I'm lost, again Tryin' to find my way back home Still don't know, where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning I'm lost, again Tryin' to find my way back home Still don't know, where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning I took my bruises, take my L's No excuses, I prevail Depression, man, it ain't no joke Been stuck with it, since I was twelve I just need some time alone Major issues, got disowned My phone, on standby, no one calls It's been three days, I got withdrawals I'm going crazy The way I'm living life, lately, is slavery 'Bout to take a couple years off dating Had enough of the heartbreak's, aching Every part of my body, so exhausted Overthinking daily I try to satisfy my cravings But my dopamine level's fading I'm just saying Death isn't the answer, grabbed that knife, put it right to my throat As I sat in silence bawlin', somehow, didn't lose hope Only sad songs on my playlist, that's the way it goes I held my own, and walked the path, that no one knows I'm lost, again Tryin' to find my way back home Still don't know, where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning I'm lost, again Tryin' to find my way back home Still don't know, where I belong Fighting, barely hangin' on I'm drowning