Deathbed

I apologized for what I said But I still meant it I know that I live in my head You won't let me forget it I promised that I tried But walls don't break, and words don't mean enough I swear I never meant to lose my grip on something that I loved I'll be laying on my deathbed And I'll tell you that I fucked it up Yeah, I'll be laying on my deathbed 'Cause I love you but it's not enough I'm praying something's gonna give Yeah, I know I feel it And the pendulum is gonna swing And rotate the seasons I promise that I'll try To be a person you deserve at all 'Cause maybe if I change You'll let me in when I wanna come home I'll be laying on my deathbed And I'll tell you that I fucked it up Yeah, I'll be laying on my deathbed 'Cause I love you but it's not enough I promised that I tried But walls don't break, and words don't mean enough I swear I never meant to lose my grip on something that I loved